Okay, Christmas theme for this year.

'Where is the peace'
My objective is to make the face of this years christmas deco's.

alrighty.

So, what comes to mind when thinking of peace?
A dove
Hippie sign
two hands together


the lack of something could be like,
emptiness
hole
black
darkness
-dark veins coming out of a hole, polluting a perfect white board?

what does peace do?
peace.. creates peace.
man what a hard question.
peace is calm, it is harmony?
google told me 'the state prevailing during the absence of war '

so.. peace wouldn't exist if there were no war.
or. war would not exist if there were no peace??

peace is a state of perfection i think.

urgh this is hard. I can't think of anything that is mildly appropriate.

Peace (symbol: ☮) is commonly understood as the absence of hostility, or the existence of healthy or newly-healed interpersonal or international relationships, safety in matters of social or economic welfare, the acknowledgment of equality and fairness in political relationships and, in world matters, peacetime; a state of being absent of any war or conflict. Reflection on the nature of peace is also bound up with considerations of the causes for its absence or loss. Among these potential causes are: insecurity, social injustice, economic inequality, political and religious radicalism, and acute racism and nationalism.

okay so.. now what. What does the bible say about peace.
--------------------------------------------------------------------------10hours later-----------------------------------
i have it!!
i'm dead tired and eating.
i'm not even hungry.

anyway, so the absence of peace. a cut out dove, and where the dove should be, all the words that are on the postcard are on it. WOOHOOOO DONE YAYERRR


sweet pea.

catch ya'll
-tonga

oh sigh.
I've got so much to do and had so little time. Things've just accumulated.
Study is such a drag, i hate it, takes up way too much time, something which there is really nothing much of.

B L E H


*tp*
imu

yeh that like triple expresso gg'd me.
i'm still awake.

Have you ever woken up a little too early, and heard the cheerful twitter of the morning birds,
the dark light blue sky that manages to create sillhouettes of .. well everything
have you ever opened your window a tiny bit, and smelt the crispy fresh air?


perspective baby.

i have.

I didn't wake up, i stayed awake and hear the shrills of the early morning birds,
the sky was too light, and the window was left open tonight so the chill sucks out all the warm air of my room.

so it's like 5:49
and i'm still not asleep.

I wonder how many more levels of borderlands i could have clocked?

xx

gg my head and study tmr morning.

okay, a skip of psalms here,

Psalms 22.

 ¹ My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?
       Why are you so far from saving me,
       so far from the words of my groaning?

 ² O my God, I cry out by day, but you do not answer,
       by night, and am not silent.

 ³ Yet you are enthroned as the Holy One;
       you are the praise of Israel. ^[a]

 ⁴ In you our fathers put their trust;
       they trusted and you delivered them.

 ⁵ They cried to you and were saved;
       in you they trusted and were not disappointed.

 ⁶ But I am a worm and not a man,
       scorned by men and despised by the people.

 ⁷ All who see me mock me;
       they hurl insults, shaking their heads:

 ⁸ "He trusts in the LORD;
       let the LORD rescue him.
       Let him deliver him,
       since he delights in him."

 ⁹ Yet you brought me out of the womb;
       you made me trust in you
       even at my mother's breast.

 ¹⁰ From birth I was cast upon you;
       from my mother's womb you have been my God.

 ¹¹ Do not be far from me,
       for trouble is near
       and there is no one to help.

 ¹² Many bulls surround me;
       strong bulls of Bashan encircle me.

 ¹³ Roaring lions tearing their prey
       open their mouths wide against me.

 ¹⁴ I am poured out like water,
       and all my bones are out of joint.
       My heart has turned to wax;
       it has melted away within me.

 ¹⁵ My strength is dried up like a potsherd,
       and my tongue sticks to the roof of my mouth;
       you lay me ^[b] in the dust of death.

 ¹⁶ Dogs have surrounded me;
       a band of evil men has encircled me,
       they have pierced ^[c] my hands and my feet.

 ¹⁷ I can count all my bones;
       people stare and gloat over me.

 ¹⁸ They divide my garments among them
       and cast lots for my clothing.

 ¹⁹ But you, O LORD, be not far off;
       O my Strength, come quickly to help me.

 ²⁰ Deliver my life from the sword,
       my precious life from the power of the dogs.

 ²¹ Rescue me from the mouth of the lions;
       save ^[d] me from the horns of the wild oxen.

 ²² I will declare your name to my brothers;
       in the congregation I will praise you.

 ²³ You who fear the LORD, praise him!
       All you descendants of Jacob, honor him!
       Revere him, all you descendants of Israel!

 ²⁴ For he has not despised or disdained
       the suffering of the afflicted one;
       he has not hidden his face from him
       but has listened to his cry for help.

 ²⁵ From you comes the theme of my praise in the great assembly;
       before those who fear you ^[e] will I fulfill my vows.

 ²⁶ The poor will eat and be satisfied;
       they who seek the LORD will praise him—
       may your hearts live forever!

 ²⁷ All the ends of the earth
       will remember and turn to the LORD,
       and all the families of the nations
       will bow down before him,

 ²⁸ for dominion belongs to the LORD
       and he rules over the nations.

 ²⁹ All the rich of the earth will feast and worship;
       all who go down to the dust will kneel before him—
       those who cannot keep themselves alive.

 ³⁰ Posterity will serve him;
       future generations will be told about the Lord.

 ³¹ They will proclaim his righteousness
       to a people yet unborn—
       for he has done it.

This one has a lot of meaning to me. I just never really got to write anything about it. I don't remeber when , i don't remember what, who or how.
There's nothing you can do to separate with God, he's always there and i'm so glad that we're able to have this. it's so.. safe.
We've studied so many other religions, so many which seem so.. well to me, frustrating, and difficult. It's funny to see though that those we've studied seem to be so against Christianity, or like, there's someway to 'accept it' but it's not the only way.

Hinduism for example. It's a circle. I find it so frustrating. Seriously. There's like, gazillions of gods and idols for every thing. You live life to find enlightenment, and once you realize that.. it's good.. and you continue doing what you are born to do, because it's what you are supposed to do. It is how you do that particular job, which qualifies you for the next level up in life.
Why would you pray to all these other god's, why would you not just pray to the 'god' above all the other gods?? cut out the middle man.
There is no sin, because everything is part of god, therefore 'me' or 'i' is an illusion.
The goal is to get back to Brahmen.. as wiki puts it,
"Brahman (Sanskrit: ब्रह्मन्, brahman, nominative brahma, ब्रह्म) is the unchanging, infinite, immanent, and transcendent reality which is the Divine Ground of all matter, energy, time, space, being, and everything beyond in this Universe."
gg branches mate.

He's too good to have anything to do with you so bl's and don't even try to communicate.
Where is the love?
If your life/soul/spirit goal is to eventually be part of Brahman, why bother? You're part of it anyway, he's .. everything.
Therefore, say for example, you do get to Brahman, and then what? You just exist as part of everything? ... no thanks. Rather imba my lifescore and up and down it to like a pro life where i do what i want. do just enough to stay at that top level. Everything includes like.. the nasties. and nah, don't feel the need to be part of the everything if that's included.
Christianity, is just another pathway to brahman.
apparently.

No. It's not. John 14:6 "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me."

okay that's a lot. I cbs writing my thought's about other religions because they are just so huge and my thoughts are more than anythign i could type in one go.


Basically. I'm so glad mum and dad are christian, and brought me up in a Christian household. It's such a privilege.
I mean, I had to make the conscience decision, and it was, and now i know that there's always someone to go back to. The world could turn it's back on me, as much as i'd cry and moan and flail, He'd be there, to show love and comfort. <3

As much as it's such a hard concept to grasp, and if i didn't understand it, it'd sound just.. who know.

So here's to you Mum n dad =] really.

I guess i'm just happy and filling rather fulfilled.
But it's sad, because then I think about other people, and how they're not as privileged as I or others..privilege in the sense that they don't know it, not that they are not 'deserving' of it.

I want to share it to much. I want to show that level of care and trust.

I've screwed up a lot, i want to fix it, but it's in the past so all i can do is pray.

lol.. i just gave dad the rest of my fruit salad and icecream. and he started making joyus noises.

'YOU SURE?? NO REGRETS?? OKAY THANKS' 'woohoo, hehehe!'

'you are tempop for this channel'

well the theme is anyway.. going to re-do it.. but not whilst exams are alive.

gotta catch 'em all first :D

 ¹ Blessed is the man
       who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked
       or stand in the way of sinners
       or sit in the seat of mockers.

 ² But his delight is in the law of the LORD,
       and on his law he meditates day and night.

 ³ He is like a tree planted by streams of water,
       which yields its fruit in season
       and whose leaf does not wither.
       Whatever he does prospers.

 ⁴ Not so the wicked!
       They are like chaff
       that the wind blows away.

 ⁵ Therefore the wicked will not stand in the judgment,
       nor sinners in the assembly of the righteous.

 ⁶ For the LORD watches over the way of the righteous,
       but the way of the wicked will perish.

The city is pretty cool. I like melbourne. I think i'd miss it if i really were to leave. Having uni in the city has really, familiarized me with the place, not that it was ever.... infamiliar-> Church ever week.

I wonder what i'll do. like to 10 years from now, where would I be, haha 10 years, is like, i'd be almost 30!
Okay so.. the plan... the... ideal plan.. but you know if it's not meant to be, or if other things come up, then i won't be too fussed.
-Be married
-Have a kid
-Have a BPM
-Done a DTS
-Really explored and know where and what God's plan for me is
-Financially independant
-Not be in a boring job

He is like a tree planted by streams of water,
       which yields its fruit in season
       and whose leaf does not wither.
       Whatever he does prospers.
That's pretty awesome. Everything he does prospers. Imagine, Everything that you did would brgin out something good, something pure, something that again prospers. All the the time.

Can you think of anyone that has?
I can't which is a shame.
I think realistically, to do good ALL the time is near impossible. But it doesn't mean you stop trying. You'd want to get as close as possible. 
And maybe tying into the Eternity thing i wrote last night. Sin is sin, and once you've sinned, the only way to 'undo' is is through forgiveness. Which is like 'yeah i did wrong, i'm sorry' Sorry being, i won't do it again.

God provides. I needed work this week, I hadn't been rostered on at all. It'd kinda been on and off for the past few weeks. IT was one of the off weeks. Then, two shifts came up, two four hour shifts, I was pretty happy at that. And last night I got a msg, asking if i would swap a shift, the saturday6-10 for today. 4:30-10, which is 5.5 hours, so an extra what, like $25?

I was considering  swapping back, so i could go out tonight, but thankfully I didn't.
All along i'd thought that simon's bday was next saturday, instead it's tomorrow, thankfully, I swapped, otherwise i wouldn't have been able to make it. SO... It all fell into place. Working more hours, and i don't miss out on Jack Daniels ribs tomorow night. What a score.

Next week i'm working 13 hours, it's hopefully going to stay that way. I just need to make sure i focus on what and when i study. Exams are seriously soon.

Before I study though, I need my room to be tidy. I started like, last night or the day before, It hasn't relly progressed since then. Which sucks. I have an idea on how I want to set my room out again anyway. Going to be quite epic.

Getting rid of everything. there's just too much. Gotta look for a new bed too, preeety excited about that :D
Maybe i'll convince mum and dad to go shopping to like IKEA or something, where they have the loft that I want. It doesn't seem to be made anywhere else, I haven't seen any.

Gotta be high enough for me to stand under, which isn't that high. Ideally, the bottom part, where the matress lies on would be on the same level that the low part of my ceiling is. So then, I'd move my bed out a bit, or have it against the window, so it's like another level sort of thing. And just have all the floor space. Also, that'd free up the entire blank wall on the right to the door. It's a smaller wall, so if i were to ever paint it, it'd be easier.

I'm scared though, to paint it. What if, it turns out warped or something. and where exactly would the VP and at what point in my room would be the marking point?

So, like i've had this feeling.. is feeling even the right word? prompting? idea? something that's been gnawing away at the back of my head more so than most other things.
and while i was thinking of this,
"Foxes have holes and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has no place to lay his head." Matt 8:20
Where I am now is so temporary.
That is the same with everyone else too. God has created such an awesomly beautiful earth. There is so much to be so grateful and happy about. I want to see it all. I want to really experience it.

I want to help, I want to do whatever and anything that I can. There's a plan for me, I don't think I know what it is or what it will be like. God doesn't just give you a map and an overview of what to do and what to say for every situation that you'll come up and into contact with. How would you learn?

It's more of a 'you should turn right here' or something. and if you don't there's always a way back to the path.

I don't know what he wants me to do, to be a goer or a sender. personally, i do not think i would ever be satisfied with... not going to do something. I want to. It just seems like, it will happen.

Psalms is such a beautiful book. I am going to make it a point to read it. It's so visual and colourful, my mind just paints pictures when i read it. I can't wait to start. It's just like when a new animation is released, I want to go and find out the concepts the storyboards, the character designs and models. It's like that.

Better together right? Well, that's what I see. I'm not sure if you see it that way too. I don't want to be left behind. It's too.... not wasting time, but more the side i don't want to be on. or.. well prefer not to be. but i guess that all depends on where He want's me to be, either way, it'll be for the best, or have happened because that was just always the plan.

You know what I like to think about?
Eternity.
It's just so amazing.
Like, people ask, so, like.. what was before God?
I would have answered 'There wasn't, God just was always there'
'nooo but before?? so... there was nothing? God just.. appeared? From.. nothing?'

BUT think about it in an Eternal perspective ( lol.. i don't think an .. 'eternal perspective' would really exist, nor a 'focus into eternity' but.. you get it)
There was no 'before'. There isn't/wasn't even a 'was'. It's just.. irrelevant. Time is something we've just lived with. It could be.. if you think about it, a '6th' sense. You can't describe it with any of the 5 bodily senses. And if you were to try to describe time to someone who has no 'time' how would you? You could not say, past, present or future, because there's just an...Is.

And it's not exactly 'now' either. like If you were to find yourself in that situation. Where would it be? and would it matter? If you were in eternity, trying to explain time (you of course still 'part' of time), it wouldn't make sense, there wouldn't be anything you could mark the 'present not past' time.

If the 'eternal' was in the 'time'. So, eternal was inside the 'time' realm, and eternity being eternity kept all its eternal and eternityish properties, Eternity would be... purely existance, in all time. You can't really capture eternity into time. That's why I think God is so Omni everything.

Screw this search for immortality, or living forever, eternity techincally isn't any of these, it's something far greater. It's outside of time greater. And seriously, what is greater than that. What in this world is not bound by time?

Everything we do is... in time.

God is so flipping amazing He'snot part of time.

haha
and He has this awesome developing relationship with someone as timebound as me. And somewhere in the 'future' of this world, or of my life, it will become an 'is' where i'll be (or pretty well dang hope there will be).

But.
Is satan part of eternity. Like, revelation happens, and all these poor souls are sent to hell. Forever. Does hell get destroyed? I mean, Satan gets destroyed, so wouldn't his kingdom be too?

JACOB BLACK.



freeking yes.
don't really dig the hair and four legs and the entire wolf transform though.

maybe him cross batman. yeah. i think i'd have to get a restraining order.


my computer can't handle batman. z.

I wonder if you feel like this too? Do you sometimes catch a glimpse and wish what it would've been like? I guess, actually i don't know what i guess.

Last night I was on the phone, and as stupid as it might sound, sappy wimp and whatever the heck you want to think, just.. things right now feel so right. And i'm so happy for it.
 

------------------------------------------------------------4days later-----------------------------------------
this save draft thing on lj is amazing.

It's 3AM and I can't sleep. I really wish i could, Got a realyl awesome test tomorrow :D hehe

Ummmmmm I'm going to send a very sappy email now. so yeh. just saying.

batman arkham asylum.

baha. My fave! I have developed a ladder of excitedness that i feel when certain things happen. Unfortunatly the chart was an msn msg, and didn't save because it is noob.

anyway, at level 9999999999999999^9999999 is the release of a batman game that looks pro. and yeah I was defs feeling that today. I'm guessing the feeling is like.. maybe when you're being proposed to by someone you reckon is the right person, or maybe like if maccas re-released the DBNC, or if life was perfect..
yep
that's probably 1/4 of the amount of feeling and happiness i felt about batman arkham asylum. I almost bought it online from eb games..but then IH called, then Dave called, then searchign for legit cracked version called... and now it is now... and i didn't end up buying it.

I figured out an amazing present. It'll be awesome. Expensive but, i think it's worth it. hehe. love love love.

oh gosh blogging at this time of night can't be good.
mmm ^^
I smell a chain of events soon.  i'll cause something or other.


I wonder what caused -that- though.. is it true? Was i right? do you feel that way too?
anyway.
manual driving for the lulz. oh man I CAN DO IT!
xx