Enter the Batcave!

done.

sarah_t90@hotmail.com — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 10:45:10 GMT

Okay, Christmas theme for this year.

'Where is the peace'
My objective is to make the face of this years christmas deco's.

alrighty.

So, what comes to mind when thinking of peace?
A dove
Hippie sign
two hands together

the lack of something could be like,
emptiness
hole
black
darkness
-dark veins coming out of a hole, polluting a perfect white board?

what does peace do?
peace.. creates peace.
man what a hard question.
peace is calm, it is harmony?
google told me 'the state prevailing during the absence of war '

so.. peace wouldn't exist if there were no war.
or. war would not exist if there were no peace??

peace is a state of perfection i think.

urgh this is hard. I can't think of anything that is mildly appropriate.

Peace (symbol: ☮) is commonly understood as the absence of hostility, or the existence of healthy or newly-healed interpersonal or international relationships, safety in matters of social or economic welfare, the acknowledgment of equality and fairness in political relationships and, in world matters, peacetime; a state of being absent of any war or conflict. Reflection on the nature of peace is also bound up with considerations of the causes for its absence or loss. Among these potential causes are: insecurity, social injustice, economic inequality, political and religious radicalism, and acute racism and nationalism.

okay so.. now what. What does the bible say about peace.
--------------------------------------------------------------------------10hours later-----------------------------------
i have it!!
i'm dead tired and eating.
i'm not even hungry.

anyway, so the absence of peace. a cut out dove, and where the dove should be, all the words that are on the postcard are on it. WOOHOOOO DONE YAYERRR

sweet pea.

catch ya'll
-tonga

asdfghjkl;'

sarah_t90@hotmail.com — Mon, 16 Nov 2009 14:52:50 GMT

oh sigh.
I've got so much to do and had so little time. Things've just accumulated.
Study is such a drag, i hate it, takes up way too much time, something which there is really nothing much of.

B L E H

*tp*
imu

oh dear.

sarah_t90@hotmail.com — Sun, 01 Nov 2009 17:14:33 GMT

yeh that like triple expresso gg'd me.
i'm still awake.

oh man.

sarah_t90@hotmail.com — Wed, 28 Oct 2009 18:52:40 GMT

Have you ever woken up a little too early, and heard the cheerful twitter of the morning birds,
the dark light blue sky that manages to create sillhouettes of .. well everything
have you ever opened your window a tiny bit, and smelt the crispy fresh air?

perspective baby.

i have.

I didn't wake up, i stayed awake and hear the shrills of the early morning birds,
the sky was too light, and the window was left open tonight so the chill sucks out all the warm air of my room.

so it's like 5:49
and i'm still not asleep.

I wonder how many more levels of borderlands i could have clocked?

xx

gg my head and study tmr morning.

number 2

sarah_t90@hotmail.com — Sat, 24 Oct 2009 09:08:18 GMT

okay, a skip of psalms here,

Psalms 22.

¹ My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?
Why are you so far from saving me,
so far from the words of my groaning?

² O my God, I cry out by day, but you do not answer,
by night, and am not silent.

³ Yet you are enthroned as the Holy One;
you are the praise of Israel. ^[a]

⁴ In you our fathers put their trust;
they trusted and you delivered them.

⁵ They cried to you and were saved;
in you they trusted and were not disappointed.

⁶ But I am a worm and not a man,
scorned by men and despised by the people.

⁷ All who see me mock me;
they hurl insults, shaking their heads:

⁸ "He trusts in the LORD;
       let the LORD rescue him.
       Let him deliver him,
       since he delights in him."

⁹ Yet you brought me out of the womb;
you made me trust in you
even at my mother's breast.

¹⁰ From birth I was cast upon you;
from my mother's womb you have been my God.

¹¹ Do not be far from me,
for trouble is near
and there is no one to help.

¹² Many bulls surround me;
strong bulls of Bashan encircle me.

¹³ Roaring lions tearing their prey
open their mouths wide against me.

¹⁴ I am poured out like water,
       and all my bones are out of joint.
       My heart has turned to wax;
       it has melted away within me.

¹⁵ My strength is dried up like a potsherd,
and my tongue sticks to the roof of my mouth;
you lay me ^[b] in the dust of death.

¹⁶ Dogs have surrounded me;
a band of evil men has encircled me,
they have pierced ^[c] my hands and my feet.

¹⁷ I can count all my bones;
people stare and gloat over me.

¹⁸ They divide my garments among them
and cast lots for my clothing.

¹⁹ But you, O LORD, be not far off;
O my Strength, come quickly to help me.

²⁰ Deliver my life from the sword,
my precious life from the power of the dogs.

²¹ Rescue me from the mouth of the lions;
save ^[d] me from the horns of the wild oxen.

²² I will declare your name to my brothers;
in the congregation I will praise you.

²³ You who fear the LORD, praise him!
All you descendants of Jacob, honor him!
Revere him, all you descendants of Israel!

²⁴ For he has not despised or disdained
       the suffering of the afflicted one;
       he has not hidden his face from him
       but has listened to his cry for help.

²⁵ From you comes the theme of my praise in the great assembly;
before those who fear you ^[e] will I fulfill my vows.

²⁶ The poor will eat and be satisfied;
they who seek the LORD will praise him—
may your hearts live forever!

²⁷ All the ends of the earth
       will remember and turn to the LORD,
       and all the families of the nations
       will bow down before him,

²⁸ for dominion belongs to the LORD
and he rules over the nations.

²⁹ All the rich of the earth will feast and worship;
all who go down to the dust will kneel before him—
those who cannot keep themselves alive.

³⁰ Posterity will serve him;
future generations will be told about the Lord.

³¹ They will proclaim his righteousness
to a people yet unborn—
for he has done it.

This one has a lot of meaning to me. I just never really got to write anything about it. I don't remeber when , i don't remember what, who or how.
There's nothing you can do to separate with God, he's always there and i'm so glad that we're able to have this. it's so.. safe.
We've studied so many other religions, so many which seem so.. well to me, frustrating, and difficult. It's funny to see though that those we've studied seem to be so against Christianity, or like, there's someway to 'accept it' but it's not the only way.

Hinduism for example. It's a circle. I find it so frustrating. Seriously. There's like, gazillions of gods and idols for every thing. You live life to find enlightenment, and once you realize that.. it's good.. and you continue doing what you are born to do, because it's what you are supposed to do. It is how you do that particular job, which qualifies you for the next level up in life.
Why would you pray to all these other god's, why would you not just pray to the 'god' above all the other gods?? cut out the middle man.
There is no sin, because everything is part of god, therefore 'me' or 'i' is an illusion.
The goal is to get back to Brahmen.. as wiki puts it,
"Brahman (Sanskrit: ब्रह्मन्, brahman, nominative brahma, ब्रह्म) is the unchanging, infinite, immanent, and transcendent reality which is the Divine Ground of all matter, energy, time, space, being, and everything beyond in this Universe."
gg branches mate.

He's too good to have anything to do with you so bl's and don't even try to communicate.
Where is the love?
If your life/soul/spirit goal is to eventually be part of Brahman, why bother? You're part of it anyway, he's .. everything.
Therefore, say for example, you do get to Brahman, and then what? You just exist as part of everything? ... no thanks. Rather imba my lifescore and up and down it to like a pro life where i do what i want. do just enough to stay at that top level. Everything includes like.. the nasties. and nah, don't feel the need to be part of the everything if that's included.
Christianity, is just another pathway to brahman.
apparently.

No. It's not. John 14:6 "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me."

okay that's a lot. I cbs writing my thought's about other religions because they are just so huge and my thoughts are more than anythign i could type in one go.

Basically. I'm so glad mum and dad are christian, and brought me up in a Christian household. It's such a privilege.
I mean, I had to make the conscience decision, and it was, and now i know that there's always someone to go back to. The world could turn it's back on me, as much as i'd cry and moan and flail, He'd be there, to show love and comfort. <3

As much as it's such a hard concept to grasp, and if i didn't understand it, it'd sound just.. who know.

So here's to you Mum n dad =] really.

I guess i'm just happy and filling rather fulfilled.
But it's sad, because then I think about other people, and how they're not as privileged as I or others..privilege in the sense that they don't know it, not that they are not 'deserving' of it.

I want to share it to much. I want to show that level of care and trust.

I've screwed up a lot, i want to fix it, but it's in the past so all i can do is pray.

lol.. i just gave dad the rest of my fruit salad and icecream. and he started making joyus noises.

'YOU SURE?? NO REGRETS?? OKAY THANKS' 'woohoo, hehehe!'

mmm

sarah_t90@hotmail.com — Sat, 24 Oct 2009 08:29:49 GMT

'you are tempop for this channel'

well the theme is anyway.. going to re-do it.. but not whilst exams are alive.

gotta catch 'em all first :D

Psalms1

sarah_t90@hotmail.com — Fri, 09 Oct 2009 12:13:57 GMT

¹ Blessed is the man
       who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked
       or stand in the way of sinners
       or sit in the seat of mockers.

² But his delight is in the law of the LORD,
and on his law he meditates day and night.

³ He is like a tree planted by streams of water,
       which yields its fruit in season
       and whose leaf does not wither.
       Whatever he does prospers.

⁴ Not so the wicked!
They are like chaff
that the wind blows away.

⁵ Therefore the wicked will not stand in the judgment,
nor sinners in the assembly of the righteous.

⁶ For the LORD watches over the way of the righteous,
but the way of the wicked will perish.

The city is pretty cool. I like melbourne. I think i'd miss it if i really were to leave. Having uni in the city has really, familiarized me with the place, not that it was ever.... infamiliar-> Church ever week.

I wonder what i'll do. like to 10 years from now, where would I be, haha 10 years, is like, i'd be almost 30!
Okay so.. the plan... the... ideal plan.. but you know if it's not meant to be, or if other things come up, then i won't be too fussed.
-Be married
-Have a kid
-Have a BPM
-Done a DTS
-Really explored and know where and what God's plan for me is
-Financially independant
-Not be in a boring job

He is like a tree planted by streams of water,
       which yields its fruit in season
       and whose leaf does not wither.
       Whatever he does prospers.
That's pretty awesome. Everything he does prospers. Imagine, Everything that you did would brgin out something good, something pure, something that again prospers. All the the time.

Can you think of anyone that has?
I can't which is a shame.
I think realistically, to do good ALL the time is near impossible. But it doesn't mean you stop trying. You'd want to get as close as possible.
And maybe tying into the Eternity thing i wrote last night. Sin is sin, and once you've sinned, the only way to 'undo' is is through forgiveness. Which is like 'yeah i did wrong, i'm sorry' Sorry being, i won't do it again.

God provides. I needed work this week, I hadn't been rostered on at all. It'd kinda been on and off for the past few weeks. IT was one of the off weeks. Then, two shifts came up, two four hour shifts, I was pretty happy at that. And last night I got a msg, asking if i would swap a shift, the saturday6-10 for today. 4:30-10, which is 5.5 hours, so an extra what, like $25?

I was considering swapping back, so i could go out tonight, but thankfully I didn't.
All along i'd thought that simon's bday was next saturday, instead it's tomorrow, thankfully, I swapped, otherwise i wouldn't have been able to make it. SO... It all fell into place. Working more hours, and i don't miss out on Jack Daniels ribs tomorow night. What a score.

Next week i'm working 13 hours, it's hopefully going to stay that way. I just need to make sure i focus on what and when i study. Exams are seriously soon.

Before I study though, I need my room to be tidy. I started like, last night or the day before, It hasn't relly progressed since then. Which sucks. I have an idea on how I want to set my room out again anyway. Going to be quite epic.

Getting rid of everything. there's just too much. Gotta look for a new bed too, preeety excited about that :D
Maybe i'll convince mum and dad to go shopping to like IKEA or something, where they have the loft that I want. It doesn't seem to be made anywhere else, I haven't seen any.

Gotta be high enough for me to stand under, which isn't that high. Ideally, the bottom part, where the matress lies on would be on the same level that the low part of my ceiling is. So then, I'd move my bed out a bit, or have it against the window, so it's like another level sort of thing. And just have all the floor space. Also, that'd free up the entire blank wall on the right to the door. It's a smaller wall, so if i were to ever paint it, it'd be easier.

I'm scared though, to paint it. What if, it turns out warped or something. and where exactly would the VP and at what point in my room would be the marking point?

God and things that are also important.t as important and God

sarah_t90@hotmail.com — Thu, 08 Oct 2009 16:09:16 GMT

So, like i've had this feeling.. is feeling even the right word? prompting? idea? something that's been gnawing away at the back of my head more so than most other things.
and while i was thinking of this,
"Foxes have holes and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has no place to lay his head." Matt 8:20
Where I am now is so temporary.
That is the same with everyone else too. God has created such an awesomly beautiful earth. There is so much to be so grateful and happy about. I want to see it all. I want to really experience it.

I want to help, I want to do whatever and anything that I can. There's a plan for me, I don't think I know what it is or what it will be like. God doesn't just give you a map and an overview of what to do and what to say for every situation that you'll come up and into contact with. How would you learn?

It's more of a 'you should turn right here' or something. and if you don't there's always a way back to the path.

I don't know what he wants me to do, to be a goer or a sender. personally, i do not think i would ever be satisfied with... not going to do something. I want to. It just seems like, it will happen.

Psalms is such a beautiful book. I am going to make it a point to read it. It's so visual and colourful, my mind just paints pictures when i read it. I can't wait to start. It's just like when a new animation is released, I want to go and find out the concepts the storyboards, the character designs and models. It's like that.

Better together right? Well, that's what I see. I'm not sure if you see it that way too. I don't want to be left behind. It's too.... not wasting time, but more the side i don't want to be on. or.. well prefer not to be. but i guess that all depends on where He want's me to be, either way, it'll be for the best, or have happened because that was just always the plan.

You know what I like to think about?
Eternity.
It's just so amazing.
Like, people ask, so, like.. what was before God?
I would have answered 'There wasn't, God just was always there'
'nooo but before?? so... there was nothing? God just.. appeared? From.. nothing?'

BUT think about it in an Eternal perspective ( lol.. i don't think an .. 'eternal perspective' would really exist, nor a 'focus into eternity' but.. you get it)
There was no 'before'. There isn't/wasn't even a 'was'. It's just.. irrelevant. Time is something we've just lived with. It could be.. if you think about it, a '6th' sense. You can't describe it with any of the 5 bodily senses. And if you were to try to describe time to someone who has no 'time' how would you? You could not say, past, present or future, because there's just an...Is.

And it's not exactly 'now' either. like If you were to find yourself in that situation. Where would it be? and would it matter? If you were in eternity, trying to explain time (you of course still 'part' of time), it wouldn't make sense, there wouldn't be anything you could mark the 'present not past' time.

If the 'eternal' was in the 'time'. So, eternal was inside the 'time' realm, and eternity being eternity kept all its eternal and eternityish properties, Eternity would be... purely existance, in all time. You can't really capture eternity into time. That's why I think God is so Omni everything.

Screw this search for immortality, or living forever, eternity techincally isn't any of these, it's something far greater. It's outside of time greater. And seriously, what is greater than that. What in this world is not bound by time?

Everything we do is... in time.

God is so flipping amazing He'snot part of time.

haha
and He has this awesome developing relationship with someone as timebound as me. And somewhere in the 'future' of this world, or of my life, it will become an 'is' where i'll be (or pretty well dang hope there will be).

But.
Is satan part of eternity. Like, revelation happens, and all these poor souls are sent to hell. Forever. Does hell get destroyed? I mean, Satan gets destroyed, so wouldn't his kingdom be too?

'ATLEST HALF THE WORLDALREADY KNOWS GEEZ'

sarah_t90@hotmail.com — Mon, 21 Sep 2009 02:24:38 GMT

JACOB BLACK.

freeking yes.
don't really dig the hair and four legs and the entire wolf transform though.

maybe him cross batman. yeah. i think i'd have to get a restraining order.

my computer can't handle batman. z.

sarah_t90@hotmail.com — Mon, 07 Sep 2009 17:19:14 GMT

I wonder if you feel like this too? Do you sometimes catch a glimpse and wish what it would've been like? I guess, actually i don't know what i guess.

Last night I was on the phone, and as stupid as it might sound, sappy wimp and whatever the heck you want to think, just.. things right now feel so right. And i'm so happy for it.

------------------------------------------------------------4days later-----------------------------------------
this save draft thing on lj is amazing.

It's 3AM and I can't sleep. I really wish i could, Got a realyl awesome test tomorrow :D hehe

Ummmmmm I'm going to send a very sappy email now. so yeh. just saying.

batman arkham asylum.

baha. My fave! I have developed a ladder of excitedness that i feel when certain things happen. Unfortunatly the chart was an msn msg, and didn't save because it is noob.

anyway, at level 9999999999999999^9999999 is the release of a batman game that looks pro. and yeah I was defs feeling that today. I'm guessing the feeling is like.. maybe when you're being proposed to by someone you reckon is the right person, or maybe like if maccas re-released the DBNC, or if life was perfect..
yep
that's probably 1/4 of the amount of feeling and happiness i felt about batman arkham asylum. I almost bought it online from eb games..but then IH called, then Dave called, then searchign for legit cracked version called... and now it is now... and i didn't end up buying it.

I figured out an amazing present. It'll be awesome. Expensive but, i think it's worth it. hehe. love love love.

oh gosh blogging at this time of night can't be good.
mmm ^^
I smell a chain of events soon. i'll cause something or other.

I wonder what caused -that- though.. is it true? Was i right? do you feel that way too?
anyway.
manual driving for the lulz. oh man I CAN DO IT!
xx

sarah_t90@hotmail.com — Tue, 25 Aug 2009 09:45:07 GMT

done.

hex how are xou?

sarah_t90@hotmail.com — Sat, 22 Aug 2009 10:40:02 GMT

Use your talents n make the most of it.
‘you can be anything you want to be’ no.
You’ve been given gifts you should use them and expand them.
Just like.. In dota lol you buy items to improve what you already have.
I think it’s better to be really good at something and be capable of most other things, than fairly average in a lot of things.
It’s better to upgrade than to spam.

Of the 100% of Christians who show an interest in missionary work , only 10% go out and actually follow through. I don’t doubt that God could use the ‘involuntary’ go mechanism to send out -more- but if we have the ability the chance the time to go forth, why don’t we?

The life we live or the majority of people will live, will be different to every other person. But how rewarding is it? How many days have you given to him to give into his will.

I think part of the reason why I’ve lost or am not as good or find it harder to draw or illustrate, is because I’ve mixed up what I’m good at with what I think or thought I could cope with. i.e Choosing accounting for a course.

Okay lets put this in game terms.. Or dota terms. I’ve been given these skills, and this much gold. Skills representing the talents God has given me, and gold representing my ability.
I’ve only got so much ability, I’ve only got a few talents.

In application to my life, well uni life, I’ve invested a lot of that gold into doing subjects, even a course that does not or… it’s like NS buying ags, it does something but… it’s mainly a waste of money. It’s buying items that do nothing, or prove to be redundant to my skills talents and STR/INT/AGI. Depending on what it is it may help you out, but in most cases it’s a waste of space and money.

This makes me look like a freak. Lol typing all this stuff out.

I guess some people it’s hard for them to pick out their skills, what they should be further improving.
For me though… it’s pretty damn obvious.

anyway charlie and the choco factory is on. THE OLD ONE. :D

omg the other day i used a german keyboard. the y and the x are changed around its quite trippy. a few OTHER LETTERS AND SYMBOLS WEER DIFF TOO! I couldnt find the underscore or forward slash T_T

oh goodness.

sarah_t90@hotmail.com — Wed, 19 Aug 2009 13:57:38 GMT

Lets try it your way.
FixYa??
Just to find the time. That doesn't exist.

Maybe time for a life re-arragement?

on another note
http://www.deependdining.com/2005/09/balut-egg-of-darkness-pinoy-pinay.html

sarah_t90@hotmail.com — Tue, 18 Aug 2009 04:25:56 GMT

Swim with dolphins and seals.

sarah_t90@hotmail.com — Mon, 17 Aug 2009 09:31:40 GMT

Okay here is me being totally rational.

What you did today was deathly close to what i can take from you.
I listen to you when I'm angry and you try to say things. You don't. If you were just tired, and feeling crap and whatever you wouldn't act like you did today. You wouldn't just wave it off and just about tell me to stfu and let you sleep.Even when i tried to ask what was wrong or talk to you.

Saturday you were tired and not feeling great. You didn't act like you did today.

You're very changing. All the time. But it's predictable and I can't adapt that fast.

I don't see anything to fix if it's your or my personality to act in that particular way.

I can't really be stuffed dealing with things now. I've got a lot bigger things to deal with.

At the end of the day, it comes down to, did what i do glorify God in any way?
Does this relationship do that?

i think I know the answer.

gtg to perspectives.I'm late. At least i go. Even though i look feel and everything is pretty crap. blog later losers.

And yes. "screw this.To the Batmobile."
The worse i feel the more batman I will wear the next day.
At this stage i should be in an entire batsuit.

sarah_t90@hotmail.com — Sun, 16 Aug 2009 14:29:00 GMT

n2s what to do.
the flash is pretty epic.

i want to wear it now.

z

i'ma go get one.

Twilight

sarah_t90@hotmail.com — Sat, 15 Aug 2009 14:35:51 GMT

LOL
commentary of watchign twigliht

jacob you're amazing
he sounds like MJ
LOL at eric.
His contacts are so fake.
hahaha oh lol. im cringing with lolness.
he's wearing lip gloss.
Freak stalker. LOL
how is he so awkward. 'ji'
HAHAHAH ERIC/ 'bella bella, look its a worm' -ahuhhuhuhuhuhhh-
aw alice<3
what a crap beach
what a tank.
he's got amazing hair. oh james.
OMG LOL IM READY FOR THE LOL. COME SAVE QUICK EDCULLEN.
hahahhaa seatbelts. omggggg im crying this is hilarious.
oh gross.
sif she would actually leave.
omg he's serisouly got an mj voice.
omg. omg. omg. LOL.
his face actually looks as carved and painted as a ken doll house
bull you're not afraid
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHa HAHAH A OROFL 'iin the sunlight'
he doesnt even glow that much. loser.
no no you're not beautiful.
there it is again. MJ voice.
you're not even going out yet.
dude you'll give her pneunomia
lol i thought someone was watching them
ew
ew
ew
ew
ew
ew
ew
ew
ew
ew
OMG. EW.
pUke.
the sparkeles make it look like a low quality vid, like it's all pixellated
HAHAHA HIS SUNNIES. LOL LOL.
freak. pure freak.
jacobjacobjacob
intense.
HAHA. sif that had any point.
omg their house.
alice alice alice shes too cute.
omg AHHH MY EYES
sif ballroom dance.
omg they're going to tree fly
she permanemtly has a strange expression
HAHA lets talk boys.
oh stalker.
awkwardddddddddddd
ew
ew
ew
ew
ew
ew
ew
ew
HAHA
'im sorry'
how can you do that?? he's so cold lol.
haha embaressing
awww =[ as if be so mean to your dad
k end

one last few words.

her neck looks uber long

sarah_t90@hotmail.com — Fri, 14 Aug 2009 15:00:40 GMT

i... just dont feel it. like at all.
i did. now just...routine boring overload.

meh

sarah_t90@hotmail.com — Wed, 12 Aug 2009 15:04:19 GMT

ARGH I AM SO FRUSTRATED.

seriously.
its like i want to stab everything and a lot of things at once. ive been seriosuly so angy over the past week and nothing will help not that i've tried. its just people are so selfish. I cant do everything. I DONT HAVE THE TIME .
meh serisouly so lol.

whatever.

anywAY i was going to blog about today and cell but now i cbs because i cbs. to much useless things to deal with and i cbs even more. It seems like i just live and it's wrong. honestly. should do shoud have balhblah

get over it its done i can only fix it. haha whatever.

lol seriously lol.

why

sarah_t90@hotmail.com — Thu, 30 Jul 2009 15:46:05 GMT

God can do anything.
Now i need some direction.
Is it really so obvious now?

I thought it was .. not this.

crap.

sarah_t90@hotmail.com — Wed, 29 Jul 2009 04:42:04 GMT

that's no fair

ttriple coded

sarah_t90@hotmail.com — Sat, 18 Jul 2009 03:52:35 GMT

have you sometimes noticed that words that are emphasised stand out more than they sometimes need too?

Once upon a time there lived a prince. He was called prince Iric. Iric you say? Why Iric? Well his mother was called irene and his father king eric, and due to the normal decision making problems that most females have, then combined their names. It was a dark winter's moning when this particular incedent happened. Iric was out playing in the snow, dressed only in his under garments. Actually no, he was dressed in a tie and shirt. One of the ones those rich ladies had given to him when he was about 4.
yeh that's the end,

hey i miss it

sarah_t90@hotmail.com — Fri, 17 Jul 2009 05:33:41 GMT

Its just not the same. -Definitely- missing something. And I know what it is, it’s just that now there’s not much that I can do that will change how it is now. I really miss it. It’s true you don’t really notice or appreciate things as much when they’re around… but……. This is different. I really really appreciated it when well.. yeah, It was not something I grew to depend on, maybe a little but not so much that I’d not be happy now. You know? Well anyway, it’s even worse than how it would be.. Or could.
Maybe I should have just settled for the average, you know, like not ask so much of this or that, or push it to the limits. -Because- now it’s gone. It’s actually kinda sad. Haha tell you a secret though, now I have to spend more money than what I used to have to. It was like double score when you were around. I’d be happy and I wouldn’t have to spend as much money. -Not- that that was all I intended it to be.
There was more, there was definitely more. Somehow it felt satisfying? We didn’t usually have much time to spend much time together so usually it was for a quick snack, meal or something like that. Nothing big, but like.. I dunno I enjoyed it.
I sit here in this particular place, well where we used to meet all the time, here as well as many others, but mostly here. The -city- was just the easiest most convenient place.
Something that really make a difference: the group. Not to sound cliché.. But it’s so different not having you around.

Oh geez just listen to me. Get over it Sarah. You knew it wouldn’t last. It was bad for you anyway. Everyone knows that. Too much of an amazing thing will do you in good.

Another thought

sarah_t90@hotmail.com — Sun, 12 Jul 2009 06:48:16 GMT

If Satan never existed.

The constant battle within the spiritual realm would not exist.
Right and Wrong would be a vague line
Would there be a right and wrong?
Selfishness??

Enter the Batcave!

done.

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God and things that are also important.t as important and God

'ATLEST HALF THE WORLDALREADY KNOWS GEEZ'

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